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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have participated in watching porn, not seen/realizing the harm it could cause.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek sexual thrills by watching porn.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to imagine porn inside my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare myself against porn stars.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to crave for sex just like in porn.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire and seek porn material in arts, movies, magazines and erotic novels.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see women as porn stars just after viewing porn.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see every man as a porn star and begin to compare myself against that man and feel myself as less than, all based on the projected images I have seen or viewed.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that ‘soft porn’ as acceptable not seen/realizing ‘soft porn’ is the entrance to the dark world of hardcore porn and its consequence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek porn as young as 13 years old when I went to places where they showed ‘blue movies’ back in Sri-Lanka.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek porn magazines and masturbate according to them, not seen/realizing the harm I caused to myself and to other beings in those pictures.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to watch porn on Saturday nights on the French channel, justifying it as soft porn, and then masturbate on it, not seen/realizing the energetic dependency I had developed consequently.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be kind of addicted to porn, at least to soft-porn.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get a real energy high when I went to those ‘adults only’ movies in anticipation of soft-porn back in Sri-Lanka.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see white women as porn stars just because all the porn I have seen are of Europeans, not seen/realizing how racially liked and judgmental porn consequences have been.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see every woman as a porn star and therefore ‘suspect’ her, not seen/realizing the reason I suspect others is because of my own participation and addiction to porn.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to enjoy and get excited about porn justifying it as harmless.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify porn as ‘just spice’ not seen/realizing it’s not ‘just spice’ it’s the whole meal, the crave to enjoy porn.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize this porn addiction is just that, an addiction to the energy of the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to like internet porn. In this I forgive myself for allowing myself to participate in cybersex.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sexualize women.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in ‘dirty talks’ and ‘erotic chats’ not seen/realizing it’s all rooted in desire/addiction for porn.

Interpersonal:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to imagine others in porn positions while I am engaging with them socially.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge some couples as ‘must be porn stars’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge some women as ‘must be hot in bed’ just like the porn stars.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to pay money to have sex and thereby participate in the sex trade which is propelled by desire/addiction for porn.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go for massage parlors with the desire to get a ‘happy ending’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to visit brothels and massage parlors and thereby participate in the keeping up of the slave sex trade.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ‘win their hearts’ so that it can lead to consensual sex hiding the fact I had to pay to get in first of all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to first develop trust and then lead them to sex, not seen/realizing abusing trust is abusing life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that porn as the real stuff that people do in their normal lives, not seen/realizing pornography is just a movie, like science fiction, amplified imagination, not real, yet I have accepted it as a normal way to express myself in sex. In this I forgive myself for turning porn into my sex teacher.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize porn is the most unlikely of sex teachers.

Universal:

As society at large, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that Porn is OK, as long as is its only for ‘adults’ in this not considering the consequence porn is creating even to adults.

As society and leaders, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that porn is for adults only, so it’s OK, it’s the freedom of choice to enjoy whatever the adults want, not seen/realizing the harm it can cause to adults, to their families and to their children.

As the world system, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deliberately permit the existence of porn because it makes a shit load of money.

As the world system, I forgive myself for allowing porn to exist because it makes a lot of money.

As the world leaders and politicians, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to pretend like porn doesn’t exist, not seen/realizing my pretense is because I love the money it brings.

As the world leaders, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider the effect of soft porn and hard porn has on children, though I conveniently pretend like these porn materials never reach children.

As the internet, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to stuff myself with porn materials all over the place and in this I forgive myself for not seen/realizing the effect/consequence of internet porn has on adults and children.

As the internet, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make porn available for everyone with just a click. In this I forgive myself for being the manifestation that brings porn to every dark room in the total privacy and secrecy for anyone to enjoy/view porn. In this I forgive myself for contributing to the harmful side-effects of porn.

This is not about blame, humans have a natural desire for sex, and sexual expression, but turning it into a form of art that it has become what it is today, namely the pornography is something we all must take responsibility to STOP it completely. There is no justification to allow and accept the existence of porn anymore.  Time to self-forgive ourselves and take self-responsibility to stop this ‘evil’.

Porn Addicts Journey to Life is written by a Group of people who have all walked through Addiction to Porn, Sex and Masturbation through the tools shared by Desteni. We share our perspectives and experiences with Porn to Support those who are ready to take the next step to Stop the Addiction to Porn.

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