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From Part 1: I have had success transcending much of this already, through my DIP (Desteni I Process Pro) course and Desteni participation: chats, blogging, eqafe interviews and then applying what I have learned in my daily life, but not completely.  Therefore, I will write it out until it is clear, no longer existent within and as me -so I do not require to use-or accept and allow myself to use- mental images (pornography in my mind) when having sex at all.

Commitment and Self-Correction Application Statements:

When and as I see myself participating with pictures/imaginings when having sex with my partner I stop, I breathe, as I now understand if I am in my mind I am not here in the moment with my partner, I do not enjoy sex as much, this habit/addiction reduces intimacy with my partner, my partner does not enjoy sex as much as I am not present and he can tell/feel this disconnection (I know this because of how our sex life has improved since stopping this habit for several months now and my partner and I  have discussed it).

As well, I realize using pornographic images/fantasies in my mind of another is like/equal to cheating on my partner, it is like/equal to raping another in my mind, it is in fact stealing the energy of this other person/or representation of a person (not specifically someone I know for example). I also understand that just because something is difficult at first, if one persevere = don’t give up, that we are indeed programmable so after a period it will become easier and then, eventually no longer exist within and as the person (for example, as many know, it generally takes 21 days to physically get over an addiction ie. smoking or alcohol and that desire/yearning like you NEED this thing NOW almost magically disappears). I remind myself to focus on what is real-to focus on my partner- stay with breath and enjoy!

When and as I see myself engaging within memories, of how I used fantasies when having sex with my partner/past partners, I stop I breathe. I remind myself how memories are useless in themselves and only bring up emotions/feeling which can harm me.  I commit to the process of breathe awareness, I remind myself I am a physical being and get on with the task that it before me in physical reality.

When and as I see myself participating within the emotions of self-blame, judgement, self-pity, regret, and shame within the memories of using my min/fantasizing while having sex with my partner/past partners, I stop, I breathe.  I realize I cannot effectively assist and support myself to change if I access memories within reactions of emotions, especially judgement, because then all I will see within such moments are my reactions, how I am then compromising/limiting/bullying myself . I cannot then change/transform me in my reaction toward the memories or look into those memories and see what I can learn .

In that, when and as I see myself beLIEving I deserve to punish/victimize/pity myself and really go into the depths of blame-, I stop, I breathe. I remind myself if I continue to participate in these emotions I cannot ever give myself the permission to learn and  from that learning to in fact change, to transcend that point of believing that I need to punish myself because punishment is not going to change me, I am not going to learn from it. Only in the understanding what I did /why I did it will assist and support me to truly change and not repeat the past. Thus I stand and commit to the process of changing me!

When and as I see myself being directed by temptation, as in self-interest/greed/want/desire just because it makes me ‘feel good’ = a QUICK/easy ENERGY HIGH, escaping in my mind to a secret place where I have programmed myself over my lifetime to connect certain/specific pictures of violence, religion, physical appearance of a being- skin color/certain body type- to give me an energy high, satisfy myself with energy instead of with what is real in the physical and share an intimate experience with my partner, which build/creates love/respect between each other. I remind myself it is easy in the mind-it is quantum and you are god/ego- to imagine how great some sexual encounter would be, but in reality it is not so simple/easy and relationships that are real, require time, effort, patience, and that is the reality of this physical world, thus I commit to sticking to this physical world out of my mind of fantasies, when enjoying sex with my partner.

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