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Porn Addicts Journey to Life is written by a Group of people who have all walked through Addiction to Porn, Sex and Masturbation through the tools shared by Desteni. We share our perspectives and experiences with Porn to Support those who are ready to take the next step to Stop the Addiction to Porn.

Who we are doesn’t matter because we’re the same as you. We write anonymously because of where the world is at today in relation to porn and because of the understanding and the persecution that follow porn addicts. We write anonymously so that we can share the unfiltered truth about life as a porn addict, so that it may assist and support those who are still trapped in the addiction to porn.

Self-Forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give up on myself when it comes to stopping my addiction to pornography

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am unable to stop my porn addiction because I so far have been unable and fallen within this point

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that it is “normal ” with relapses in terms of dependency and use this as an excuse and justification to fall back into my addiction

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see and understand that I alone is the determining  factor that decide whether I should continue to be addicted to porn or not

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to subject and surrender myself to a mental dependency and make this dependency larger and more relevant than the physical reality

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make my energy dependency of porn bigger than myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that I can’t live without pornography and the energy boost this gives me

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see the simplicity of the solution to stop pornography by just stopping , breathing and thus applying myself in the physical reality

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to stand up in myself, stop myself and breathe when the desire to escape to pornography occurs

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to investigate within myself what it is that I am attempting to escape or avoid when the urge to masturbate to porno arise

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to look at pornography in order to generate an excited state and to feel “alive”

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to associate the excited state I experience when I look at pornography with life and being alive

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in this energy generating process, although I know exactly how I experience myself afterwards – tired , depressed , anxious and remorseful

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to open the same doors and go down the exact same dead ends even though I know exactly to where they lead

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame my porn consumption on that I’m “addicted”, in an attempt to abdicate my self-responsibility to a psychological phenomenon that is “beyond my power

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have become more excited the longer time it goes from when I last masturbated, completely without realizing and understanding that it is I myself that generate this excitement by accumulating thoughts and fantasies during this time

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to escape from commitments and relevant activities such as studies and my process of self-honest writing, to pornography and masturbation

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify my addiction by thinking that I do not have a partner to have sex with and therefore “must have at least something “

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that my many years of pornography addiction has made me unable to have an equal, physical and stable relationship with a woman because I only see her as an object of my sexual desires

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to go into the sexual fantasies whenever I see a woman, and place this woman in pornographic scenes that I have accepted and allowed myself to be conditioned with for years of porn consumption

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to masturbate to pornography even though I know it only prolongs and compounds my addiction

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to calculate in my mind whether I, from the perspective of an energy-dependent mind consciousness system, win or lose on stopping my porn consumption

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to “try” to stop pornography addiction instead of physically, self-directively and actually stop within and as a decision that is best for me/life

I forgive myself that have NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that the word “try” implies that I have already fallen and left the door open to give up, and within this suggesting to myself that there is indeed some other factor outside of myself that is necessary for me to stop

I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to see and understand that the fact that I similar to a zombie allow myself to be automatically controlled and driven by mental energy desires, is reason enough to stop my pornography addiction

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let the mind direct me instead of physically directing myself within the principle of what is physically best for me/life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I need any reason at all to stop my porn consumption

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make myself so addicted to porn and masturbation that I have physically manifested it in my body in the form of shaking, chills and headache when I have not masturbated to pornography in a few days

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to succumb to and follow my thoughts which like a pushy drug dealer says to me “just one more time, just one last fix!”

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from my physical body to the extreme point where I can’t masturbate with a physical presence without the use of porn or to go into mental fantasies

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to associate masturbation with pictures and pornography, instead of seeing masturbation as a physical self- expression and an opportunity to be physically intimate with myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to masturbate within the starting point of reaching an orgasm, even though I am well aware that I only recharging my energetic mind and thus prolonging my process of self-realization

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to associate orgasm with life and living, within reasoning that I am the result of an orgasm

To be continued…

I suggest you also listen to the indispensable interview series Shocking Secrets of Masturbation to hear never-before-considered perspectives about masturbation:

https://eqafe.com/series/7-shocking-secrets-of-masturbation

Pornography Messed up my Sex Life – Life Review – https://eqafe.com/p/pornography-messed-up-my-sex-life-life-review

Shocking Secrets of Masturbation – Relationship Imprinting – Part 1 – https://eqafe.com/p/shocking-secrets-of-masturbation-relationship-imprinting-part-1

Life Review – A Cheater in my Mind – https://eqafe.com/p/life-review-a-cheater-in-my-mind

Sunette Spies – Women Masturbate with Common Sense – https://eqafe.com/p/sunette-spies-women-masturbate-with-common-sense

What is Sex? – Introduction – Part 1-6 – https://eqafe.com/p/what-is-sex-introduction

Sunette Spies – Sex and Success – https://eqafe.com/p/sex-and-success-sunette-spies

Also check out the Facebook page Porn Alt Delete and watch the live google hangouts on Pornography.